Trusting in Him, not thinking it still needs to be me
Lord, I didn't get out what I wanted to say. I just left the time with that person. I believe you directed me to have that conversation, even though after you led me and I made the appointment that I began to be nervous about what to say. I decided to trust you on the way to the appointment and prayed ahead of time for the conversation and to trust you through it, as I spoke, for what was said. And there were some amazing things said. Things that came out, the way I had hoped. You were moving through me and helping me with the words to speak. Then I left and started rehearsing all that was said and suddenly I am saying, "Darn, why didn't I say that?" And then I began to reinforce that in my thinking more and more, to the point that I started to get down on myself and nervous and mad and feeling like I need to reach out to that person and get those things said. Oh God, I am doing it again to you. I am making it out that you are not in control, but I am. That the only ...